Happiness can't be pursued. It either comes to your or it don't. You can always say "if only this and if only that"; but if only is a state of mind that we get into when we feel deprived.
Bob Dylan - Jack Fate

“Jesse was increasingly cavalier. Merry, moody, fey, unpredictable. He camouflaged his depressions and derangements with masquerades of extreme cordiality, courtesy, and goodwill towards others.”
Hugh Ross - Narrator

“- Dan: Everybody wants to be happy.
- Larry: Depressives don't. They want to be unhappy to confirm they're depressed. If they were happy they couldn't be depressed anymore. They'd have to go out into the world and live. Which can be depressing.”
Jude Law - Dan
Clive Owen - Larry

“Wondering if you're happy is a great shortcut to just being depressed.”
Annette Bening - Dorothea Fields

“Man wants chaos. In fact, he's got to have it. Depression, strife, riots, murder. All this dread. We're irresistibly drawn to that almost orgiastic state created out of death and destruction. It's in all of us.”
J.C. Shakespeare - Burning Man